I was a mess; emotionally and spiritually unready for self-restraint. I have always had an issue with this fast, which is why I want to talk about it. Keeps me honest and aware of my issues.
Perhaps it seems even harder to me because I have put my spirituality on pause, for lack of a better term. More on that later.
It didn't help that the music I was listening to almost put me into tears either . A quick change in the playlist changed my perspective though and that put me in a better state.
It's worth reminding oneself that music can be a tool to help bring you to a higher level.
I made the first day with no hiccups except for some slight drooling when my wife had a yogurt and honey snack today. It looked really really good.
Each day of the fast I take a picture, it's a way to focus on something other than food and water.
This was my morning, seemingly cold and lonely. It's a good lonely though, maybe lonely isn't the word, more like solitary. It's a quiet time. Everyone is asleep, even the cats and dogs can't bring enough energy into getting up. It was a good time to think.
"As regards fasting, it constitutes, together with the obligatory prayers, the two pillars that sustain the revealed Law of God. They act as stimulants to the soul, strengthen, revive and purify it, and thus insure its steady development."
Shoghi Effendi
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